trauma-tape:

i want everything to stop !!!! i want to stop time !!!!! i want to rest !!!! i want some more energy !!!! it’s just !!!!!! too !!!!! much !!!!!

screaming-a-wishper:

Today I just feel like a fat piece of shit that won’t never be thin

youngadultquoted:

I thought about him asking me if I’d ever been in love. It’s a weird phrase in English, in love, like it’s a sea you drown in or a town you live in. You don’t get to be in anything else—in friendship or in anger or in hope. All you can be in is love. And I wanted to tell him that even though I’d never been in love, I knew what it was like to be in a feeling, to be not just surrounded by it but also permeated by it, the way my grandmother talked about God being everywhere. When my thoughts spiraled, I was in the spiral, and of it. And I wanted to tell him that the idea of being in a feeling gave language to something I couldn’t describe before, created a form for it, but I couldn’t figure out how to say any of that out loud.

John Green, Turtles All the Way Down

"did that happen yesterday?
or was it the day before? or last week
maybe it was last year
maybe it didn’t happen at all
did I do my homework or did I just think about doing it
was last night real or a dream or none of the above
(did I make it all up?)
is the year 2017 or 2014 or is that even how we measure years anymore
fuck if I know
(lately I’ve been remembering more)
(lately I’ve been trusting myself less)
did we have that conversation or
was that with someone else or
am I just pretending I know what you would have said
(am I just pretending?)
how old was I when that happened? fourteen? eight? Twenty?
and are you sure there’s been a November every year? I feel like I definitely missed at least one
I haven’t seen you in forever/you saw me literally yesterday
we just talked about this/that conversation was months ago
I just set it down somewhere/where’d it go?
this is what you said to me/I never said that
this is what happened/stop making me look like the bad guy
this is what you did to me/you’re so dramatic
(I can’t tell what is real anymore.)”